Letting GoSometimes during the course of our lives, the Lord ask us to lay things down. And it can be hard.
I had a friend who was very dear to me. She brought joy to my heart, always lifted my spirit and always knew just what to say.
For several months I had felt the promptings of the Holy Spirit to "let her go". I decided I was hearing things and couldn't imagine why on earth the Holy Spirit would want me to let go of someone who was so very important to me.
However, several prompts later I received a HUGE nudge to do as He was asking. Having had this confirmed by several Bible verses and a word from a trustworthy friend, I did as I was asked to do.
To say that this has been a wrench is an understatement. My heart was so heavy I thought it would drop out of me. The whole process has been like a bereavement and I felt numb for a few months.
Then the Holy Spirit began speaking to me about idols and how I had made this beautiful lady an idol in my life - how I had began to listen to her thoughts / opinions and especially her beliefs much more than I should have done. He showed me how I was beginning to have my "feet in two camps" - my faith and a different faith. He showed me how He had given me a choice - I could either "let her go" or continue our friendship but eventually I would be "going over to a different camp".
I hadn't seen any of this at the time He asked me to "let her go". I see it now.
I am thankful that I made the right choice without knowing all the reasons. It doesn't mean that I don't still miss my friend. Because I certainly do and sometimes my heart still aches. Maybe I shouldn't miss her as I do. I don't know.
What I most certainly do know is I love Jesus and if He asks me to do something He wants me to do, then I don't need to know the reason. I need and want to be obedient to Him. I am happy to be obedient even when I don't understand.